Negativity is unfortunately catching and now I've found myself in a rut. That song 'I Love Myself' by Kendrick Lamar has come on the radio as I'm typing this but I'm unable to share that sentiment right now. So many thoughts lingering in my head and I just know people aren't going to read if I let them all out so I'll just let out the main one.
What am I doing so wrong that repels people from my commissions? I know I don't have the best style out there. I've never said I do. I'm no Yaoi-Huntress-Earth
or many of the brilliant people I watch. I never will be but I found a style that works for me. You can't say I haven't improved. Remember the 2010 days of big eyes and even bigger heads? Big eyes look cute on some styles (like Llama-lady
, now there's an artist who makes big eyes appealing :3) but they just looked horrific when I did them. I might hate how people now call my stuff cute whether it was supposed to look that way or not but it looks a lot better than the stuff I was producing once upon a time.
But maybe I was wrong for thinking for one little second that my style was good enough to try and make a little pin money from what I love. And before anyone talks about prices, I got told by many artists that my previous prices were underselling myself before I changed them. You know what, I blame you, Blumestien
. I blame you for this sudden burst of negativity, you're the one who laughed in my face regarding my commissions. Things you say and do can affect people regarding stuff like this and you (alongside other people) might do well to remember that. I originally didn't call you out because I wanted to be the bigger person but now.....ugh.
I'll try to get on with some drawing today, get a couple of things posted though if it doesn't happen today...you'll know I wasn't in the mood and why that was.